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New Year! Truer You!

Another Year to Love!

Love Abundantly!

Happy New Year Girlfriend!

It’s resolution time! What’s it gonna be this year? How far will you get into this year’s journey to 

the better you?  Starting off is easy and fun even, getting all organized and ready for the new you.

New workout clothes, a fridge full of fresh veggies and fruit, ready to be juiced daily.  For me, Girlfriend,

I’ve got to do it this time! I’m going to be 50 this year!  The years go by so fast. We fully intend to get it right “tomorrow”

and do well by ourselves but we apparently don’t love ourselves enough to take the actions that are going to get us to all of our

dreams fulfilled.  Tough love is what’s needed and I’m about to get tough on me. 

This past year has been one of the absolute most painful, eye opening, life-changing years for me.  The end of a 10 year relationship with my one Good Guy and the loss of Buddy, my cat.  I guess life doesn’t turn out like you think it will. Or actually, it kind of did!  I blame the demise of our love based specifically on our thoughts, our thoughts that lead to the lack of loving actions on both of our parts.

 “Our thoughts determine our actions and outcomes.” Don’t I know it!

It appears God has another plan for me.  It seems it’s time to practice what I preach.  My New Year’s resolution is to spend time morning and night making sure I’m on the right path, thinking the good thoughts, making choices that will, although difficult I’m sure, ensure the daily, peace, love and joy I’ve always desired.  By the end of 2014 I claim this vow here and now to not only be fifty, but finally fit, financially free, have been to France and perhaps even a Fiancé!  Those are my big dreams for this year. A Fiance?, eh… I’m coo!    

Here’s to us and Cheers to success in all of our resolves to love ourselves that much more…

             Cheers!  True Love~ Self Love

True Love~ Self Love

Tee’s Tough Love Tactics™ in action.



Today I feel…..

Happy Holidays! REALLY?

During the holidays there are so many expectations.

Yeah, yeah…so I’ve heard, if I don’t expect I won’t get let down.
During the holidays you don’t have to have expectations, they’re already implied. This time of year is so focused everywhere you look, about spending time with loved ones and the giving and receiving of gifts.

How bout when you’re in love and your lover let’s you down in during this time of year.

For so many years I was truly disappointed and hurt at this time of year. It sucked in a major way. This time of year truly shed a SPOT light on my already bad relationship.

I remember one time with my son’s father, (I was about 26 my son about 6) he stayed out all night on the night before Christmas Eve.
Already upset, but not wanting to fight on this day, I tip-toed around getting him up so he could help with getting the things in the car so we could get on the road to both families’.

Well….. as he layed on the couch trying to catch up on sleep, I began nudging him to wake up when WTF!?????…..

I saw lipstick on his collar! No more tip-toeing around.

I asked him, “What the hell is this?” (quietly)
( LOL that’s funny) Then he lifted up his body to grab me around the collar of my shirt as he up and socked me in the gut? OMG!

Once I caught my breath and got over the shock, I knew I had to keep my cool.

As I write this memory, it’s almost as horrific to me now as it was then, 20 years ago.

I had to just suck it up for my son! I walked away in
shock. He’d never hit me, ever, out of 10 yrs together!

We got in the car and faked our Happy Holiday.

Okay so that story has so much more to tell but, bottom line, he got someone else pregnant and after six years back and forth, after Amelia was born, I was finally over it!

Here’s another fond memory of a Christmas “love” of mine.

Fast forward, I’m 38 now, he’s the same age, we’re together about 8 months, we’re going to my family’s for Christmas Eve. At that point, he says hadn’t bought me a gift. He says, “Let’s go find something for you now.”
I couldn’t believe what I was hearing, he had money, he had time. What he didn’t have was character. I knew I deserved better, but I wasn’t breaking up with him, I loved him and so it not be more upsetting than it already was, we went and GIRLLLL I wanted my gift! I had bought him so much! This wasn’t the way I knew I deserved to receive a gift from him who loved me, but there we went driving around Beverly Hills in and out of stores to try to find me a $100 gift.

Imagine……on our way to the family’s and going in and out of stores trying to hurry and find myself something from him.

What a joke! Yeah that one didn’t last, but not for my lack
of trying to change him! He left me!

But what I did get from him……. inspiration for my book.

Our experiences make us who we are. And yes we must be proud of who we are. But I’m here to tell you imagine your character if you have/make your life’s experiences filled with positive and happy ones.

Girlfriend, I so admire young girls who are spending their youth in becoming a woman of many character traits and enjoying life.

What was most important to me was “True Love”. I thought I had it, (so many times) just that, no one was perfect, so I put up with ALOT!

Trust me…’s not him it’s YOU!

Focus on what else will bring a smile to your face. At this holiday season find someone else to bring joy
to, by the smallest of gifts, being in a helping hand, or donation of time.

Take the focus off of you/him and I promise you’ll be rewarded with deeper feelings of joy that’ll create a happier you. This you anyone will be lucky to have and trust me you’ll have your pick!

Happy Holidays!

Peace in Love

Today I feel…..

Good morning again,

Another morning…..Honestly I feel many things. I’ve got to get my exercise. I know it’s important, I want to look good and feel good too. Why is it so hard??? Every night I say I’ll do it in the morning and when morning comes, I’m certain it’ll be better to happen at night. Vicious cycle! Meanwhile I love my fresh baked Nestle Toll House cookies, 2-3 nightly. I’m up earlier this morning so I can get it in and so far have not. The sun is out, the running shoes are in sight, the double jackets are good to go and even the radio. I don’t understand why I keep putting it off. I’m so attracted to all the fitness magazines and women who are in their forties with slammin bodies, so why not me? I’ve got so much going on but I know this needs to be an important part of my day too. It’s like paying yourself first. Why don’t we do that? Does anyone else have the same fight going on with themselves. I’ve read that cardio is important to potentially prevent Altzhiemer disease and dimentia. This is now my driving force. Shame to achieve my success and not remember it! Wish me luck!

Today I feel…..

The “Joys” Of Divorce – By Man On The Fence

Today I feel…..

Today I feel…….Content

Today I remember being consumed daily with the heartache and loneliness that was a result of my having chosen to love someone else more than myself. I accepted bad days in the name of love. “He” was who I wanted deep in the core of my being. I had already loved him so much and enjoyed many “good times” that I couldn’t bare the thought of not having him in my life. Consequently, the only option was to get him to understand how his actions or lack of action must change. Then and only then could we continue to be happy together.

Today I wonder why with all of the many choices there are in life I could have made to create joy in each day, why did I spend so many days filled with sorrow. Now, I have so many desires I want to fulfill, however small or insignificant they may be, my only problem is not enough hours in the day and will I live long enough to complete them all.

(One is to become a better writer.)

Choice not chance, determines destiny.

I hope you choose to be happy today.